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I'm stuck in Starbucks for a few hours today because of the bus strike, so why not take this time to catch up on my blog.... it's been way too long since I've written anything here. So much for trying to keep up with it XD I always say I'm going to try harder, but that's just setting myself up for failure lol So I will just attempt to write here when I'm feeling up to it and not put any pressure on myself over something that isn't really that important.


So its been what, almost 2 weeks since I last wrote? A little less than that. Well the past few weeks have been a bit of a lesson of "everything happens for a reason." We have a new manager at Build-a-Bear... and its not me. I'm not quite sure why I wasn't given the opportunity, but from what I could gather they needed someone fast with managerial experience. That's valid, I guess. Except this girl has NO experience at Build-a-bear at all. Like I think yesterday was her first day and I don't think she even knows how to make a bear yet. She seems cool enough, but I'm just wondering like if they are going to train her how to do everything, why couldn't they train me at the manager stuff since I already know the bear stuff? I dunno. I get that I have zero management experience and that definitely works against me a bit. I was really upset at first about it but... I can't let it ruin how much I love this job. I still feel passionate about being there and I still love what I do. I can not not not let this ruin the only job I have ever enjoyed in my life. My mom also made the point that since I don't have any management experience that promoting me to shift leader or whatever that step in between regular employee and full-blown manager is would be more logical in the long run. So I've made peace with it. I'm still kinda disappointed that things aren't moving as quickly as I want, but I'm sure there's some reason in the universe this is the way it should be.

I'm tired of working at Charming Charlie. Its getting harder and harder for me to care about selling plastic jewelry to ladies with entitlement complexes that most of the time can't speak English. I have no days off this week, and I'm exhausted and on day 5 in a row, and this morning I found it so hard to give even the remotest little shit about dressing "fashion forward" (whatever that means) for this stupid job. More and more I'm finding that I feel really awkward dressing in what we're supposed to. I'd rather just wear my sneakers and basketball shorts and dykey t-shirts. That's so much more me. It's not the worst job I've had by far, but it drains me. Just sucks out my soul. Every so often I have a fulfilling experience there but they are few and far between. I'm not going to quit cuz I'm sure this is as good as its going to get for a second job, I'm just trying to endure until I make enough money at Build-a-Bear to quit. Apparently my apathy about this job isn't coming out that much cuz I had a review with my crazy manager and it was pretty good, so whatever. That pretty much sums up how I feel when I'm there.... whatever.

On the other side of things, my weight loss has been going very well. It's officially been a month today, and I've lost 12 lbs so far. I haven't exercised at all this week, but with working so much my mental and physical capacity is pretty nil. But its going well! Only like... 70 more lbs to go lol

I'm so tired. I was supposed to be able to sleep this morning but this stupid ass bus strike had me getting up early so I could go to work with my mom and then take her car from there to my work since she won't let me go home with the car (she claims it takes up too much gas). Just ug. I want a nap. This strike better not last too long.

Alright, I think that's all there is to tell. I've got fandom related feels but just too tired to talk about them right now.


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August 2013


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